Well, a LOT has happened since I posted on here last.  I was living in New Jersey, and had just started a new and improved blog on another site and then my world turned upside down.  My husband retired from the Air Force after 20 years in the service.  We moved back to South Carolina, bought a house, and turned civilian.  To say it has been an adjustment is an understatement.  I went back to work full-time. It was the first time I had to do that since having children.  It has not been easy for me to juggle the need to work 40 hours and the mommy guilt I feel.  A lot of other things in my life had to change to make room for my job and I wasn’t prepared for that.  I quit organizing my recipes, quit running with people (I’m now chained to my treadmill, but at least I have one!), practically quit cooking, and definitely quit blogging.  I miss the way my life was in NJ.  I miss my friends and the way of life I had there.  I’ve had to go through a mourning period, I think.  I’ve also had to adjust to being near family.  I think expectations on both sides were making the reality of it hard for everyone.  I’m not used to having family near by to depend on and they wanted to make up for lost time.

I’ve done a lot of thinking lately, especially with all the talk of New Years resolutions.  I’ve really missed blogging, so I’m going to give this another try.  I’m sure I don’t have any followers out there anymore, but this almost feels like therapy to me!  So, be on the lookout for more recipes very soon 🙂

I’ve also put on a few extra pounds with all the emotional eating.  I’m still getting my workouts in, but they are at 430 in the morning in my workout room, all alone.  I’ve searched for hours upon hours for a gym with classes before work (because doing it after work is not possible right now), or a running group with no results.  It’s very disheartening to feel so very very alone in my workouts.  But right now, that’s all I have.  I’m trying to figure out how I want to lose the extra weight.  Do I want to count calories, or join WW online (because there is no time for a weekly meeting, either).  I’m leaning towards WW because that worked so well for me in the past and counting calories is such a pain in the a&$!  I’ve really been beating myself up for not staying on track.  But I read a quote today that really stuck with me.  It said “Never let your past experiences harm your future.  Your past can’t be altered and your future doesn’t deserve the punishment.”  I really really love this.  I think I punish myself WAY too much.  I’m going to try to just look forward from here on out.

I have gotten into running again.  I kind of quit for a nearly a year.  I’m back on it though and am closing in on a goal to hit 3000 miles on the Nike website!  I’ve also signed up for a half marathon in April.  I don’t think I’ll be able to PR, but I hope to stay close to my last time.  I’m doing a sprint triathlon in September!!!  YIKES!!!  I don’t even own a bike or know how to swim that good, but it was on my fitness bucket list, so I was tired of saying “maybe next year”.  I’ll be sure to keep you updated on my progress.

Question of the day:  Do you count calories, points, or do you have a good handle on what you should eat, like its second nature?

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